Archive for July 18th, 2010
On Friday, I did something I thought I’d never do – or be capable of doing, to be more specific.
Well, two things, actually.
The first was doing 50 minutes on the treadmill. I was walking for most of it, but I did do four 3-minute sprints. It felt so awesome – I can’t even describe the feeling. It felt exhilerating to be actually USING my body – instead of just letting it rot. It was freedom and joy and pride all rolled into one huge sweaty ball.
The second was meeting with someone I didn’t even know and help them with food choices. I didn’t do it alone – Sparklebutt was there, too – and I definitely have things to learn about how to not show my reactions when people talk about significant others being unsupportive, but Sparklebutt seems to think that I know my stuff when it comes to eating clean. She’s going to send me another person who wants to learn more, too.
I talked to her a little bit about…my role. I really want to help her…in fact, I’ve had daydreams about being some sort of partner/co-worker/underling in her training business. But even though I am doing things now, I feel weird about being so involved when I look the way I do. Granted – I moving in a better direction and I definitely think I look way better than I did…but I still feel weird being in a position of giving advice to people while I’m still overweight.
It’s strange…I never thought that there would come a day when I would not see my future involving being fat. When I look ahead now, all I see is success. I have to work hard now in order to get that success, but it will be worth it when I get there. And even if I don’t get to competition level, I know that I’ll be healthy and looking better than I ever have.
Saturday, Darrin and I had the pleasure of meeting up with kaya and …ack, I dunno what to call him. I’ll call him Redheaded Hottie.
They were in town, and so we all met up for breakfast at a little (literal) hole-in-the-wall that we like to go to. It was so great to see them again, and we had a great time talking about past and future events and just being with like-minded people. =) Kaya looked fantastic and Darrin loves being around people as pervy as him. Plus, I got to feast my eyes on a hot couple. nomnomnom
Tomorrow I’m starting up a new regime. I’ll be doing 30 minutes of cardio and then 20-30 minutes of strength training each day. I need to step up my workouts to get past this speedbump I’m currently floundering over (I’m not unhappy, though – I’d rather be floundering at this weight than what I was floundering at before!) and also step up my food intake. I do well during the week because I heart my cooler, but the weekends can be a little…erm…challenging. Though I didn’t do too bad this weekend – definitely not as bad as a few I’ve had. Just need to focus a little harder.
And I’m actually considering becoming a certified personal trainer – mostly because the certificates I’m truly interested in need the CPT as a pre-requisite, and also because I’d like to help out Sparklebutt.
Seriously…a personal trainer. I still can’t believe it, even when I write it down like this. It’s like….I don’t even know what it’s like. It’s like something bizarre and weird and yet makes so much sense.